BYU Idaho

Early this week my mom and I drove up to Rexburg to check out BYU-I. Neither my mother or I had ever been there before. And let me just say--IT IS WONDERFUL. I could not be more excited to go there. The campus is the perfect size, not to big and not to small. You can get anywhere on campus from anywhere else on campus in 15 minutes or less. It is like a mini-BYU Provo, but better! Everyone is so kind and helpful. AHHhhhh, I just want to go so bad! The campus has heated sidewalks, in case anyone was wondering! The place where I am living in absolutely perfect. It is a three bedroom apartment, off campus (but literally right across the street from campus.) It has a huge kitchen, two bathrooms, and tons of storage space. Plus, to top it all off, it is brand spanking new. That means it is clean, hallelujuah! My personal favorite add-ons are, tv and cable are included. Plus, there are workout and movie theatre rooms in the lounge. I could go on and on and on and on and on and on and on........

kensingtonmanor.net (look at the pictures! Personal fav is the girl studying her scriptures, haha, gotta love BYU-I!)

College Choices and Life Decisions

I was at the Ari Hest concert and could not WAIT for him to get on stage. It felt like I was waiting for a lifetime, so I decided to check my phone, see if I had any messages. My sister had texted me asking if I got into BYU. WHAT!? We weren't supposed to hear until the 28th, could they really have already posted it? So excited I opened besmart.com as quick I could. I waited with baited breathe for the page to load as I imagined all my dreams coming true. And then I saw it--denied. Don't mind my being dramatic, I was just trying to articulate what was going through my mind at the time. I did not quite know what to do. I did not really feel anything. I was a little dejected, embarrassed, upset, but my heart was not completely broken.

 My whole life I have felt like BYU Provo was my calling. It was where I needed to be, it was where all my siblings had gone, where my parents had gone! I was the last one. I HAD to get in. Maybe, it was an unrighteous desire, to want to be accepted so that I did not seem like a failure to my family. I knew none of them would view it like that, but I would. In that moment when I saw the "denied" I felt like all of my hard work, everything I had done my whole life was for nothing. BYU was where I needed to go. I had prayed every night, pleaded with the Lord to let me be accepted there. My parents prayed for it. I was so confused to why Heavenly Father would do this to me. I had lived a righteous life, always trying to be the very best I could be. I worked really hard in school, heck I even graduated early. I had almost a 3.9 GPA, how come I did not get in? As I went to bed that night I laid with my eyes open for hours. I finally decided to read my scriptures in some search for an answer. I have recently started rereading the Book of Mormon, so I was in 2 Nephi 20 and just decided to keep reading there. It had nothing to do with me. It was about people being destroyed and whatnot. I kept reading and the very last verse of the chapter the very last line said "The haughty must be humbled." That was it. But that was enough. I knew, at least partly, that I had not been accepted because I needed to be humbled. And humbled I am.

This morning I spent my time looking at the other schools I had been accepted to. It just so happens that the school I decided on has the exact program I want (BYU did not), with a new apartment that is so stinkin' nice. I see the hand of the Lord directing me where I need to go, and that is BYU Idaho. So, starting Fall 2012 that is where I will be attending. I know that as I trust in the Lord all things will be beneficial in some way, even if the path is clouded to me, He is there, leading me to become what He needs me to be. I know that. And I can honestly say, I am so, so excited to attend BYU Idaho.

The Job Hunt

Looking for a job is not easy. To be honest, I thought I would begin looking for a job and have one in like two weeks. That has not been the case. I feel like I have put in seventeen million applications--to no prevail. All applications are online now, which is such a disadvantage to us "wonderfully pleasant in person" people, such as myself. Today, I actually went out to stores to ask for paper applications, most of them told me to apply online, one manager talked to my chest for 5 minutes and Chuck E. Cheese actually gave me a real application. Does anyone else remember Chuck E. Cheese being the coolest place on earth? Yeah, well, it is kind of gross. But hey! It is a job! Anywho, the job hunt continues! I have not gotten completely discouraged yet. I am still convinced that I am perfectly capable of any job, not to mention qualified. *cough* I'm sure that confidence will not last much longer as I realize that I am not getting hired anywhere because I actually have zero experience. IF NO WHERE HIRES ME HOW CAN I EVER GAIN EXPERIENCE!? Goodness. I digress.

California

I spent this past week with my grandmother down in California. It was very fun and I really enjoyed the time I got to spend with her. Most of our time was spent watching TV, driving to various stores and working on a quilt. I love my grandma very much and each moment no matter how insignificant is significant to me. PLUS, I enjoyed the fact that I did not have to be in school. Relief.


In other news, my sister, Lindsey sent me the last of my senior pictures! They turned out great. What a blessing it is to have such a talented photographer as my flesh and blood sister!

High School

Today was my last day of High School. I was sadder to leave than I thought I would be . I even started to second guess my decision. Why had I chosen to leave early?


Then I went to the last basketball game of the season.


And got pushed down the bleachers.


I remembered why I left. And I'm never going to back. PEACE OUT LW